So blessed with your comments. Alam n’yo bang nakita ko si Professor XOXO last week (haha..nkwento ko lang). Anyway, pasukan na. Nakapag-enroll ka na ba? Well kung hindi pa, mag enroll ka na. (hahaha wala lang ulit!).

Are you afraid of heights? How about cockroaches? (Grabe ah, mas malaki ka pa dun!) Eh natakot ka na bang pumunta ng school? Ako? I would say yes. Nagiging monster kasi school namin eh (haha, bata?!). Seriously speaking, I came to a point na takot na pala akong pumunta ng school.

One night, I was crying because of a text from a friend who was asking if I enrolled na. Habang nag i-emote ako (haha emote talaga eh), I asked God, “Lord bakit ako umiiyak? Bakit ako nasasaktan?” Actually, I was afraid to go to school; I was afraid to enroll; I was afraid to see a professor who caused me pain because of what she did to me (parang ang bigat no’n ah, haha). Kaya kahit gaano kaluwag ang schedule ko, hindi ko magawang pumunta ng school.

One day, (parang kanina lang one night) God impressed on me that I needed to face my fears. Again, I prayed and I asked God for His guidance. I think a day after that I started facing my fears by telling my parents what had happened. At first I was so nervous because I didn’t know what their reactions would be. And I thank God they made me feel that they were not that disappointed. Nanghihinayang, oo.

The second step that I took in facing my fears was I opened up the situation to my scholarship adviser. Naiyak lang naman ako sa sagot n’ya sa’kin. He’s like a father to me and I thank God for a taste of family kahit malayo ako sa mga magulang ko.

The last thing that I did was that I went to our department building and picked a schedule.  Ang tagal kong dinelay ang hakbang na ito dahil bago pa man magbakasyon ay nag-iistruggle na ‘ko about this dilemma. At last, I did it! But without God I don’t think I could handle it.

Facing my fears was like diving into water from a skyscraper’s rooftop. Lalo na that I am not that good in swimming. I had two choices: either tumayo na lang ako sa itaas at magsayang ng oras, or tumalon na dahil tatalon din naman ako dahil ‘yun lang ang paraan para makaalis ako doon.

I am just so blessed na sa lahat ng iyon I didn’t feel na iniwan ako ni Lord sa ere. If you are in the same situation, don’t hesitate to face your fears. God will be on your side more than you expect.

“But whoever listens to me will have security. He will be safe, with no reason to be afraid.” Proverbs 1:33

Sarah

Sarah is one of her university’s most active student leaders whose obsession with student welfare can rival that of politicians, and whose love for color green can potentially translate into environmentalism in the not-so-distant-future. Instead of being a Sarah Crewe, she’s been a service crew, promo girl, student assistant and student facilitator to support her schooling, which is now down to one year—right on! Her campus drama is living proof that nothing’s impossible to the Savior who can move mountains.

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