Oh, ‘di ba! Still about fear… November ba ngayon?! Haha.

There’s this TV show called Face Your Fear that subjects celebrities to different challenges.

Face Your Fear challenges include exploring haunted houses or caves. Knowing these kinds of eerie places, we get to have an idea of what types of fear challengers need to meet. It’s their fear of ghosts or mumu (haha).

While still praying and thinking about what might be a nice topic for today’s blog, napanood ko ‘to. As I watched this haunted house scene, I remembered my Christian student life. The haunted house represented the task God gave me, ako as the celebrity (siyempre ako bida dito, haha), and the mumu as my past.

I remembered my struggle as a Christian during my third year in college. God gave me a vision of a Bible study that time. The attendees were my classmates. So heto na, pumapasok na ang celebrity sa haunted house.

Feeling ko naman ako ‘yung celebrity na takot sa haunted house

I was afraid to go inside. I was afraid to encounter the mumu. I was afraid to invite my classmates to the Bible study. I was afraid na ipamukha nila sa’kin ang mga masasamang nagawa ko dati tapos ngayon I am inviting them to a Bible study. I was afraid na sabihin nilang wala rin akong pinagkaiba sa kanila.

Noong nasa second year college kasi ako, I was a not-so-good girl. That time sobrang lamig ng relationship ko kay Lord. Ang daming pumapasok sa utak ko; nai-stress ako sa subjects ko; wala akong makausap at na-curious pa ako sa pag-inom. ‘Di ba ang sakit pakinggan? Buti na lang kasama ko ‘yung isang taong nakakakilala sa’kin. God was still good to me. Hindi niya hinayaang maparami ang inom ko. Grabe, hindi pa nagtatagal, namamantal na pala ako. Namantal ako hindi lang sa kamay, hindi lang sa mukha, kundi sa buong katawan. After that, hindi na naulit ‘yun and I pray by God’s grace hindi na mauulit pa. Ito ang multo ng nakaraan ko (bantot! Haha). This was what I feared.

So ‘yun na nga, as I went inside, sobrang takot ako. I was just so blessed that when I attended a service, a pastor said that if you have a dark past don’t be dismayed but be glad because you have overcome it for it to be proclaimed as your testimony.

Na-amaze lang naman ako ulit kay Lord. Ang dami kasing alam gawin ng Kaaway just to weigh us down. Ayun, praise God nagkaroon ng Bible study sa section namin. At ang nakakatuwa doon, nakapunta ang mga attendees namin sa KKB Youth Summit 2009.

Minsan ang hirap gumalaw sa school dahil hindi tayo nabubuhay sa ating mga sarili lamang. Nagse-set din tayo ng example bilang mga Christians. We always need to remember our mission. God placed us in our university or school to inspire students and people around us to live for Christ. Let us not allow whatever fears brought by our past and present to hinder us from pursuing God’s calling.

Sarah

Sarah is one of her university’s most active student leaders whose obsession with student welfare can rival that of politicians, and whose love for color green can potentially translate into environmentalism in the not-so-distant-future. Instead of being a Sarah Crewe, she’s been a service crew, promo girl, student assistant and student facilitator to support her schooling, which is now down to one year—right on! Her campus drama is living proof that nothing’s impossible to the Savior who can move mountains.

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